Hindsight – A Film about Looking Back
Part celebration, and part eulogy, Hindsight will be a 16mm endeavor that documents life in my hometown. It has been a year since my family moved from Marlborough, Connecticut, and as more time passes, the town becomes more inaccessible to me. I spent the first eighteen years of my life growing up in that community, though I find myself having trouble referring to it as my home. As my friends move away and the town changes, my presence in the town fades with it. All this makes me wonder: doesn’t this happen to everyone? Is a home a state of mind or a physical place? I feel as if I should move on from my life in Marlborough, as I know it is something I will never encounter again, but for some reason I’m apprehensive.
As comfortable as I am living in Boston, where I have friends and family, why do I feel this urge to drive two hours down to Connecticut for a weekend? I believe it is something inside of me that won’t let me forget about Marlborough. The need to explore this idea of home led to the creation of my BFA Practicum project.
Over the course of the next year and half, I will be traveling down to Marlborough to document life in the town over the course of the four seasons. I wish to capture the essence of the town, and what it means to live there. At the same time I will be revisiting some of the significant locations of my childhood, now with a 16mm film camera to record the experience. At the same time, I’ll be sorting through the hours and hours of VHS, Hi8, and MiniDV video footage taken by both my parents and myself, searching for and reliving moments from my past. I hope to then juxtapose those mediated memories of the past, with the 16mm film footage of the present. In the end, I hope to create a visual record of my life in the town as it was and as it is now.